The story behind my left knee

There's a spot on my skin right above my right knee that itches and burns so bad that I want to dig into my skin. No matter how much I scratch it, or put cool rags on it or whatever I can think to sooth it,  it still continues to itch. But there's nothing there. Doctors cannot find anything wring with it. Well... technically there are nerves there. I have a disease of the central nervous system so anything goes, right?
  It's common for people with MS to experience strange sensations (also known as dysesthesias). Itching is one potential sensory disturbance of MS. It's different from allergic itching because it's not accompanied by a rash or skin irritation. If itching is mild, no treatment is necessary. It also hurts,
  Mine is more than mild, but I choose not to medicate with pharmacy meds for this. I just try not to scratch as much (i rub instead). And I make sure the area is clean, and I pray alot. I have a plan.
  Medical marijuana has been shown to ease the symptoms for those who suffer with neuropathic pain.  Neuropathic pain is a specific type of pain that has usually resulted from irritation or damage to a nerve. Some of these strains are Chem Dawg, Super Silver Haze, Super Silver Sour Diesel Haze,  and AK47 (there are others as well).
  See, things can be treated naturally if you have the money to be able to either grow it or purchase it. It's one's choice on how they choose to medicate. We don't always have to go with what a doctor prescribes if something natural and organic can do the same justice. I live in a state where I can grow six plants or more so I'd like to grow one of these strains if possible. I've tried some of these strains and they do help.

https://mymsaa.org/ms-information/symptoms/pain/

Meeting Dr. Sheldon

Today I met with Dr. Sheldon. She's a really nice lady. It was easy to talk to her even with the transcriber there and Mallory in the room and of course Koche Cooper, who went with me. So dr. Sheldon and I just really talked and she asked me what some of my symptoms are and what are some of the things that I go through, and again it was really easy to talk to her. But as I began to talk to her she began to tell me what instances my diagnosis’  came into play and that helped out a lot because I know doctors have told me in the past, but I forget why they told me those things.  I just kind of take it into my personality or into my identity and speaking with Dr. Sheldon I felt safe and I could really be myself and it felt good to be in that position.

It's hard for me to deal with different doctors. There's a none trust issue that really makes it hard for them to treat me the way that they would like to treat me. Above all else I believe that’s practicing medicine and I know that everything is pretty much experimental because people are all different. We're not all the same. Multiple Sclerosis to me is not the same Multiple Sclerosis as theirs but the thing is we have a lot of similarities. There's some things that the doctor told me that I'm just going to take my time to explore and I'll see her next month

I like Mallory a lot because I don't have another female in my life to take on the feminine things that I need the feminine energy that I need. Mallory can provide a little of that female energy. The doctor talked about my abandonment issues. I didn't tell her that. I didn't tell her a lot. I spoke with her honestly and in a pretty safe mood and I was happy. It's beautiful out here in Denver .I had a really rough night last night with communication and frustration but I woke up this morning happy to be alive and thankful and in a positive space, so I didn't go to dr. Sheldon in a frantic state of mind. I mean I was my normal nervous self but I had Koche Cooper with me and it was alright.

Everyone here respects the fact that I want to go a holistic natural organic route for my treatment,  but they are appreciative that I am willing to at least try their practice and to see if it'll work for me. I'm thankful that today I'm only suffering body pain maybe at a 5 or 6 (especially my arms down to the elbows but I'm alright I am very very much all right and I know that I'm worried about my children always, but I know that I'm trying to stay here with them a little bit longer a lot bit longer and to do that I need to have someone to talk to that can help me out of the emotional entrapments that I found myself into.

I am not the same Attica Lundy That I Used to be. I'm not even the same Attica Lundy Cooper that I was in the beginning. But I am the Attica Lundy Cooper that I am today and that's alright. I am going to try my best to get On The Rise Radio and On The Rise Magazine where they need to be because it's a company that's for our future of the world honestly and especially for my children because this from me and of  me  to them and to their kids and their kids. We have 5 beautiful children that we are very very much proud of and we want to do for them and we have a beautiful grandson that we simply adore and we can't wait until we're at a stable place with my health and our finances that we can all be back together again.