Lately every time I say I'm hurting, everyone around me says that they are hurting too. I suppose it makes me feel like I'm not alone. Weird, right...connected by pain. For me, making the bed is a hard thing to do because it really hurts my arms. I'm sitting here, just having made the bed, and my arms feel like i've been lifting weights. My reality is that nobody truly understands this, so i've stopped asking for help all the time. For what? If I depend on others, the bed won't get made. So I do it in pain because I have to. The same way I have to live this life in pain.
Wednesday, November 30, 2016
Friday, November 4, 2016
Back against the wall
Honestly, my back feels all sorts of broken. I'm in pain and I hate it. I can't sit straight because my back hurts. I can't sit crooked either without pain. I really can't get comfortable.
I'm smoking Tangerine Kush. I got it from Lotus Medical and was told it's very strong. See, it's known to relieve pain and allow for relaxation.
I'm in the process of renewing my "red card". It's actually purple, which makes the color a returning favorite of mine. I used to love the color purple which is why in 1983 I discovered Alice Walker's THE COLOR PURPLE. I was in the 5th grade. That book shocked me, much like this back pain is now. Everything is like this pain because I don't know what it feels like not to have it.
I'm laying on my side now. I tried laying on my back, but it's too sore. I feel like this is skeletal pain. I don't want to take pain meds for it so that cannabis is helping. I also got bath bombs (I hope they work). I think without cannabis, I'd lose it. I'd surely have to take opiates which I do not want to do again. I'm going from lots of medications to none and I want to keep it that way. Cannabis allows me to relax so that the pain is tolerable at least.
I hope nobody else gets MS.
I feel trapped inside this pain. I'm panicked like my back is against the wall and if I don't improve I will deteriorate. I need to take yoga, at least, but I'm so sore. Regular exercise like sit ups and push-ups are unbearable. I'm stuck.
I'm not the only one. I've got a friend whose back pain is so severe that she is in tears. I wish I could cry about my pain but crying would probably hurt. My body hurts like I've been struck by a moving vehicle. My mind is all over the place. Guess I'll smoke.
Tuesday, November 1, 2016
Musculoskeletal pain please go away
My body hurts. Pretty much all the time. I'm dealing with it. I'm currently not on any medications, and so there is no relief from narcotics. I'm having to choose between my comfort and my organs; I choose pain.
Musculoskeletal pain (nociceptive pain) is caused by damage to muscles, tendons, ligaments or soft tissue. Musculoskeletal pain in MS feels like the pain from common injuries unrelated to MS, such as a sprain or pulled muscle. ... Muscle or joint pain due to changes in posture, spasms or muscle stiffness (spasticity)
Cannabis, hot showers, organic herbs, and any other pain relieving assistance I can get, I'm all for. As long as it's as organic as it can be, I'm with it. I find that putting unhealthy things into my body has really damaged my well being to the extent that I'm nauseous, and extremely paranoid. Big Pharma has done a job on me, and now it's time to regain some of my soul. I'm trying...one day at a time, I'm trying. To cope. To live.
Musculoskeletal pain (nociceptive pain) is caused by damage to muscles, tendons, ligaments or soft tissue. Musculoskeletal pain in MS feels like the pain from common injuries unrelated to MS, such as a sprain or pulled muscle. ... Muscle or joint pain due to changes in posture, spasms or muscle stiffness (spasticity)
Cannabis, hot showers, organic herbs, and any other pain relieving assistance I can get, I'm all for. As long as it's as organic as it can be, I'm with it. I find that putting unhealthy things into my body has really damaged my well being to the extent that I'm nauseous, and extremely paranoid. Big Pharma has done a job on me, and now it's time to regain some of my soul. I'm trying...one day at a time, I'm trying. To cope. To live.
Musculoskeletal pain please go away
My body hurts. Pretty much all the time. I'm dealing with it. I'm currently not on any medications, and so there is no relief from narcotics. I'm having to choose between my comfort and my organs; I choose pain.
Musculoskeletal pain (nociceptive pain) is caused by damage to muscles, tendons, ligaments or soft tissue. Musculoskeletal pain in MS feels like the pain from common injuries unrelated to MS, such as a sprain or pulled muscle. ... Muscle or joint pain due to changes in posture, spasms or muscle stiffness (spasticity)
Cannabis, hot showers, organic herbs, and any other pain relieving assistance I can get, I'm all for. As long as it's as organic as it can be, I'm with it. I find that putting unhealthy things into my body has really damaged my well being to the extent that I'm nauseous, and extremely paranoid. Big Pharma has done a job on me, and now it's time to regain some of my soul. I'm trying...one day at a time, I'm trying. To cope. To live.
Musculoskeletal pain (nociceptive pain) is caused by damage to muscles, tendons, ligaments or soft tissue. Musculoskeletal pain in MS feels like the pain from common injuries unrelated to MS, such as a sprain or pulled muscle. ... Muscle or joint pain due to changes in posture, spasms or muscle stiffness (spasticity)
Cannabis, hot showers, organic herbs, and any other pain relieving assistance I can get, I'm all for. As long as it's as organic as it can be, I'm with it. I find that putting unhealthy things into my body has really damaged my well being to the extent that I'm nauseous, and extremely paranoid. Big Pharma has done a job on me, and now it's time to regain some of my soul. I'm trying...one day at a time, I'm trying. To cope. To live.
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