I've experienced more cognitive issues in the last past
years since 2013. Different patients have different issues when it comes
to cognitive issues. For me, I'm currently having difficulty with planning
and problem-solving and tending to become overwhelmed and inflexible when a
task is too complex. I don't have it in me to have flexibility to generate
alternative solutions. I'm in a horrible and confusing "MS
FOG".
I'm glad that at an early age of five, I was tested with a
high IQ of 142. Yes....me. I suppose that’s why going through this isn't
as hard because I understand fully what’s going on, even in my hazed mind. Some
MS'ers are unaware of their difficulties and have problems monitoring their own
behavior. Not me: as soon as I notice it I put my support system on full alert
to know what’s going on and to stand in for me. Comprehension of the impact of
their behavior on others may also be overlooked by some; by me I know it is
hard on my tribe and my business family, but we are in this together.
I am a bit tired of having brilliant ideas that I can't execute.
I need more assistants and interns to train in these life skills and wisdom/knowledge
I want to pass down. It's hard because I do need a team to get things done for
me. I want to do so much but can only do so much. I thank God that I'm able to
be a mother to my children and be able to raise them in a multi parent
household as opposed to a single parent one. In my family, we are here
together for life....life partners... a tribe dedicated to raising our young in
the best environment ever. We are homeschooling, and despite my cognitive
issues, I'm still able to contribute greatly to my children's education.
I've created a team that helps with academics. And I concentrated on
their enrichment and cultural studies. With home figured out, I still need help
with other things...living assistance. Like for instance I'm in a fog when
planning meals, and that sucks because I have to waiting first others to
prepare my meals. I get ready time send off an email and it might take me
all day or days even to get that done because I get "stuck". As
powerful as I am I feel helpless in my mind at times. Even with this
post, it's day three in the drafts.
I won't complain. I'm quite intelligent so when I'm in a fog
relapse, I just take it as a vacation. Playing gtaonline ps3 is a
great help and being a minister and volunteer life coach is easy for me to
do...second nature even in the fog. I can't let this MS beat me
and fog or not, that high IQ is still there somewhere in the damaged myelin
covering of my mind; just being utilized in a different way.
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